I will start this blog post by saying,” Thank God for his mercy and grace.” I was on this earth for a long-time before I met Jesus, and then he had to come to me because I never would have gone to Him. That is why I say it is better to meet Jesus at an old age than never to meet him.

It is hard for me to believe I was walking around on this earth thinking I knew Jesus when, in fact, I did not know him at all. I was friendly and kind to the people I met, or at least I thought I was. I attended religious services with my wife on Sundays, and on Wednesday nights, I usually paid my tithes.

I never enjoyed attending religious worship services because I never got anything out of them. It was just a tedious few hours, but I did not complain because I knew my wife enjoyed it. I never told my wife that Jesus was not a living being; he was just something church people believed in.

Like Apostle Thomas, I wouldn’t have believed in Jesus without a personal encounter. I wonder if others believe without meeting Him, or if they, too, met Him personally.

When I say meeting Jesus personally, I mean the two of you become one; you share the same internal organs. I mean, the two of you share everything. The problem with that situation is that I could not hide anything from Jesus, but I wanted to.

I do not know if God put me in that awful place or if he allowed Satan to put me there; I will not tell you what place it was, but believe me, you do not want to go there. I do not know how I got there or how long I was there, but when I realized where I was, I was about 12–15 ft from hell’s door.

When I was in that awful place, Jesus came to me. I wanted to hide from him, but I knew there were no hiding places. So, I sat or stood there; I do not remember which. I was looking lonely, sad, and stupid. That is when Jesus approached me, and we became one.

That is when I first realized Jesus was truly alive, and that connection transformed my entire life. For the first time, I could see with new eyes. Although I wish this realization had come fifty years earlier, I now know that encountering Jesus at any age is more valuable than never meeting him at all.

Back before I met Jesus, I had a wife and raised four children; after meeting Jesus, I realized I was not a Godly person. I did not know love, so I could not show love to my family because I had none to give. For all those seventy-two years, I thought I was a believer, but in reality, I was wicked, thinking I could save myself.  

I knew some of what I did and how I treated my family and friends was wrong. I did not have Jesus in my life back then, so I made a lot of bad choices. I wish I could change them, but it is too late; all I can do now is ask for forgiveness.

I wish Jesus had come into my life fifty years earlier, but I never truly asked Him. Even so, when He finally came, it was unasked. My experience showed me that Jesus seeks out all lost people, like me, so they have a chance to meet Him and go to heaven, no matter their age.

by: Staff